grass is greener...

i am one to always criticize myself. one to second guess and question myself. which leads to comparing myself to others and evaluating myself in comparison to the people around me. i have learned that this is a very unproductive behavior. i have been working on concentrating on ME. and what MY goals are. and how i want MY life to take flight.

this picture got me thinking... if i am feeling that someones grass is greener than mine... i should not attempt to make mine green as the other grass... i should actually find the reason my side has no grass or less green grass... why i feel like anothers is greener than mine... and water mine. it's a state of mind as i compare myself to another, that i am dead grass. i need to nourish me and my choices. make the proper adjustments to improve me.

as i concentrate on me and making my grass green... the fence between me and another field does not exist. i am me. and i am a dang good person. i deserve to be happy. i have much to be thankful for. my life is full.

little man

so today eliot had an awards ceremony at school. he received the character counts award for the month in his class for "caring". his teacher, mrs rios, started her little speech about eliot before she actually announced his name, and got all choked up and teared up a little. she said the character counts award this month is for caring. and the little man that has earned this award gives the best hugs, they are so tight. he always has something nice to say to each of his friends. he greets them each morning, individually and bids farewell each afternoon. he is full of life and has a huge heart. she was teary. and then she announced his name, he stood up, this short little kindergarten man, and all the kids in his class were like "YES". and did the elbow from up down to the waist. they were all so happy for him. his smile was PRICELESS!!!!
i walked up to take his picture and was wiping tears away from my face. i was thinking, what a special little man he is. he is just a huge hearted good little man. his capacity to love is so massive. and i am blessed to have him as my son... he makes me smile... and i too, love his snuggles... :)